adrian's blog

3 Nov 2011

2011-11-03T01:30:00.000-07:00

心痛心酸心碎了...

我累了.. why ?

looks like lots of hard time i have to goes through..

no job , no money, relationship end , foreign country visa run out

think if this is u, how u deal with it?

28 September

2011-09-27T04:29:00.000-07:00

recently only working, morning 4am start.. after work then continue part time till night time.. monday to saturday nonstop..

recently i just feel tired.. dont feel like talking online,

just wanna have a good rest..

if anyone want to ring me just drop me message to my FB or email :) thanks

September 2011

2011-09-23T03:44:00.000-07:00

i think i getting tired .. working working and working!

tried keep myself busy... so i dont think too much!

from 4am working, after still part time and come home night time tired and go to bed...

tomorrow start all same again..

i really cant afford to get sick..

wanted to get sick and rest...

but i really cant get sick!

lots of bills to be paid

i working very very hard for my life now...

cant really imagine how i can handle all this ?

i guess life have to give and take..

there is times i stress out

there is times i really missing someone

there is times i wish everything gonna be alright

missing u but i have to live alone by myself here..

i guess u gone and forgot about me

i wish i can talk with u

r u gone ?

r u already gone ?

Start over

2010-09-12T04:53:00.000-07:00

my life experience when i step into this place, and start over again, get to know people over here. some are good, bad,funny..etc but mostly.. get to know their culture and the life style.

i still bring my laughter for them while i passing their life, i cant really talk proper language but at least i try,communicate and get to know them well.

went through happiness, extra ordinary life experience, but mostly went through my great depression period. i help people for their lives, i learn things that from their hearts, different people different places different goal different attitude, everyday was a worry, unsettledness, unsure what will happen to us all. might be bad or good.

i believe everything happen for a reason, this is a really why we came across problem and overall tells us that what is meant to be or not. we need to change for good, for a better person, we have out own value, we have to make things right, we need to know the world, we been polluted by human creation,we lost in our human value.

hmm...anyway god bless you!

19 July 2010

2010-07-19T00:43:00.000-07:00

suddenly think about the reason we all been on earth,

what the reason we all struggling here and find out what we want in life?

or may be some just follow what others can do, and then just follow what other do and try to get it or achieve it. middle class people, working class people.. etc, all of those people is just a puppet and walking around the boundary.

On earth, everything is control by a powerful tool called money, which founded by someone who is very smart, and able to control everything.. mostly everything.

very smart indeed, they are many success and rich people in the world , no matter how rich they are, the money source still refer to them. the bankers. we work hard, shit and stuff... we are the slave of them.. under their control.. even government. when you really know their system..you just cant imagine what a nice and complete plan it is.. watch the dvd and you will get an idea about it.

and now all money is operate in computer. which is more into digital and high tech stuff..

how about if this world suddenly no money system and all electronic stuff gone? like war is going on or earth disasters strike on every corner of the earth. it going to be interesting.. no more status on people, all same equal, people will be more close to each others and find a way to get around and help each other.

but human still human.. their is something we cant change.. greedy and want to be better than anyone else.. that make the world today. seen and hear too much..

my journey of my life, when i feel very tired.. i will ask my self ? do i want to ended here like this? gotta be finding something very precious and valuable than so called "money" cant buy stuff.. still searching for a way... God the almighty.. please help me..

价值观

2010-07-07T01:03:00.000-07:00

我们的价值观。。到底是什么？

怎么分析？

世界那么多人。。每个人的价值观都不同。。

简单来说。。

难取得的东西。。

难做出来的东西。。

会排在贵的一边吧。。

有些人选择新的。。

有些人选择等待。。

我的价值观每年都在变。。我也不了解我自己了。。

我活得很好，但不开心。。我真的搞不清。。

想找回那种感觉。。

到处寻找同样的日常用品。。同样的天气。。终是找不回同样的感觉了。。

不想呆在这里太久。。会疯掉。。寻找我的梦想。。希望能找到另一个天堂。。

不想管那么多了。。我的人生。。上天的安排。。。

一个迷宫。。何时能走得出来。。

累了。。改天再继续写吧。。

看开点

2010-06-05T04:16:00.000-07:00

爱情的产生

或许就是因为这些因素左右了思想，

记忆让感觉错了位，

思考让人的行为诡秘。

看开点。。或许这是是美好的过程。

看开点。。或许这是上天的安排。。

看开点。。或许这样的结果会更好。

看开点。。或许这样你会活的更好。

看开点。。程经有过美好的回忆。。

看开点。。或许一切都是都是好的。

看开点。。她不是属于你的。。。。

看开点。。时间证明一切。。。。。

当初做的决定是对或是错？

自然会知道，也会看得到。。。。。

看开点。。已经尽力了。。。。。。

时间不停的过。久了。远了。不见了。

看开点。。已经是过去了。。。。。

加油! 是时候寻找自己的一片天空。。

may 2010

2010-05-13T04:26:00.000-07:00

Wonder why choosed this road?
Wonder why I still walking on this road..
Wonder why I standing in a midst.. Get myself isolate is my choice..
So alone.. Walking down without support.. No one can really provide support to my heart.. No trust.. No one...been through heap of bad situation..Do good return me a blame..
all is carrying it and get moving.. Not really know beginning, not really know the finish line.. What is important? What is not? Can't feel tired, can't feel depress, can't feel weak, can't complain, can't do anything.. Helpless.. Lost in Darkness... I need a light of hope.. ..

伤心的路

2010-04-14T01:07:00.000-07:00

一条模糊的路

一颗破碎的心

路程变得越来越难走..

伤心的路谁陪我走?

感觉上好像失去了自觉..

期待的..希望的.. 都不需要了..

都已经无法回头了..

爱情永远都是最伤感..

很容易踏入,但很难踏出..

曾经的我们是爱的如此热烈

回忆是美好的,

故事的开场往往是美好的..无论过得是苦是都觉得值得的..

是不是最热烈的爱情就会有最冷漠的结局?

我已经被取代了..

结局都是无论是好或是坏.......都必须接受..

可是说的确简单.. 事实上... 我也接受不了..

快疯了..好痛苦~ ! 可以怎样..? 无能为力..

坦白说.. 这段日子.. 都是在折磨自己来过生活...

做的每件事都在痛苦当中.. 也许无人明白..

反正都在一个无人认识我的地方..

人来人往... 都是陪伴你走过路的人..

year of tiger! 2010 arrghh~!!

2010-03-11T03:19:00.000-08:00

2010 come!

new year again!

now reflect what i have done in 2009. . .

asking myself:

1)who am i ? .. about my past.. my present... my future?

2)what are my beliefs, personal value, skills?

everyone is blessed with talents... use them or lose them!

Good or bad? bad or good?

Did i learn something or did i wasting all my time doing the same old things?

Did i accomplish goal ? unfortunately.. i follow the flow.. nothing much.. nothing less..

Things happen.. things might happen.. things goes wrong.. things goes well..

Meet new friends...and i wish i will stay in ur mind that after 10-20 years later u can still remember who am i when we accidentally meet at the road or somewhere? haha!! at least let me know i still exist in the world!! :D yeah u rock man!

Never escape from trouble! will try to stand up by myself and defense.. it depend on situation..

i would have done something wrong but

how about charity work? hmm.. i m bad i m bad.. din do any on 2009... hahaXD

guideline! guideline for u...do more reading!i hate myself, i realize there a lot of books produce by specialist can actually be your guideline what ever u do.. i m so glad that whoever create computer is real genius and real evil behind it! :P

i feel strange that some secret they should keep for them-self, but they reveal to the world by written books..? everyone reads it and

-are they trying to be the first one ? founder? to get publicity?

-or to woke up the world that the truth is ... ???

-or tried to make huge or MONEY!!! hahaha

-or sharing is caring?? XD

-nevermind... is all about money making thingy..

set a goal for yourself, so that will keep in mind you refer it every time and you dont get lost! haha..

time passing by,gotta get going! ......improve ourself every year is not easy, but it is worth to try out!

27 August 2009

2009-08-26T10:01:00.000-07:00

phew~ after long battle of assignment.. finally i can take a break now...
hmm.. quite surprisingly i able to write and do some research on history theory and combine every key words into one topic.. but i really hope that my english is good enough in communication and also writing...
when time past... i realise that every minutes past so fast and i near to the end of my degree now.. started to reflect what i have learn in these year in my degree course.. i feel that my english is getting worst that i cant able to understand the local conversation mostly especially those have their own adsense that really make me piss off sometimes.. i have learn few architecture drawing software in short period and able to finish their assignment in short time, but i realize i din use it for a while.. then i start to forgot everything that i have learn... such as archicad,cinema 4d, rhino,3d max... hm.. well anyone got any advice in memorizing software thing? ...may b use it more often?

hmm... i wonder how to make us human really effective and active to generate idea and design in such ways that like those professional? or.. they also like us.. need time to relax.. and then time for concentrate do work? anyone have any idea? feel free to drop me some suggestion.. i really wan to heard from many opinion.. because for me.. i quite slow person.. i need longer time to digest idea and then started to design.. and i feel that i quite limited in generate new idea.. i only can generate metaphor building... ermm... still need work out on planning design and detail thing... i brain really jam when meeting of problem now... really make me frustrated..

well as u know we student always stress... and when we do work also stress...
in another way, there are people always do thing early in study to prevent rushing and panic...
generally, we always meet up with 'last minutes' work whether in studies or working...
well i really admire those people able to think quickly in short time when something happen in that particular time, their brain seem to reflect very fast and solve the problem.. some kind of plan B or Plan C when error occur... because in working life or ur life.. not everything happen smoothly as you aspect .. there are always problem there and u realise it in the end and you need to made a decision... so there come a solution of work SMART instead of work HARD..

alrite... after a long while i experience work and study.. there is totally different kind of environment in design thing.. if u know what i mean... different approach.. very good in school doesnt mean good in work/business. right? sometimes i feel that not everyone is perfect in this world.. but i think the most value thing is the attitude of people.. even if he is the most best actor, especially those active in church but they still cheating and pretend to be nice people and back stab u......or look down on people...... those attitude really make ppl piss off.. well, i personally think that is the thinking of not mature people..
for e.g. action ppl vs. humble people ... it common sense that people like humble people because they are mature enough to think wise and u have faith on them..

there are people born to be a presenter and i really admire them that able to talk so smooth and talk like a professional, audience pay atttention to your talking.. that ive you power to catch their attention to communcate well.. really so cool~ unfortunately i still speak broken english and cant even undestand those local ascent.. doesnt really know what they talking about =.=lll

alrite.. i stop here for a while... hope fully can upload some photo here when i free.. :) thanks for spending time reading it , feel free drop me some comment of suggestion. :)
take care!

6 August 2009

2009-08-06T04:21:00.000-07:00

aiyo.. so busy and tired..
well i come down again and type something here seem abandone my blog a while already..
after the semester 1 this year..
straight away i take the winter school " learning by Making"
going in the morning and going back home at night..
so tired leh.. everyday going the same.. wake up, do work, back home..dinner.. sleep.
hmm.. getting sien leh..

now get into semester 2 already,
quite fortunate i still survive again and continue the second war..
although everything seem going fine..
but there is a thing that i always worry about..
and i know its never be the same again..
and i knew this going to happen before i study abroad..
my life change.. my decision change.. everything i have.. i knew it gonna disappear..
something i cant choose it by myself.. they will choose it for me..
i still no good enough to make thing right.. i still not that good enough..
it not easy as we think..

20 June 2009

2009-06-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

mm.. aiks.. after saw my friend's blog so so nice~.. i was so inspire by their artwork and i did enjoy their initiative spending their time to do some writing for their own blog... haha i was so long~ i mean really so long time din update my blog~already... mm.. now only me alone at home until 28 june 2009.. all of my friends went back to Malaysia already... so lonely~
hmm.. i only spending time for movies,eating,online,find friends... and spending time with seesha(pet) in the house... quite annoying sometimes... but the only accompany me in the house...

May 2009

2009-05-19T11:09:00.001-07:00

It been long time i din really upload anything on blog... properly because i was busy of my assignment and many thing happen to me this year.. .. i m tired.. i need rest now... let me alone... haiz... at this moment.. i realize that what ever u do things.. it doesnt matter how u do.. but the important is u really put some effort on it.. Ways, no matter what u do.. what u choose to do.. always choose the way u feel comfortable and do it with correct way..but, we always make the same mistakes.. but that is how u learn from mistake in your journey of your life, you cant see your future just like u lost in forest..may b u only can see some bits, there are different of different layer problem and environment in every place u been. Just like the picture i draw, from the bottom, they have your close people,close friends accompany you before you start to go out to find your future and u are about to take off,there must be very sad because u are leaving and u are going on your own.. the more u walk.. the more u cant see them anymore..just like getting disappearing.. people change..people will getting old.. may b good, may b bad.. there is always u will meet into a end that have 2 pathways,either there are short term of long term worth for you.. to be continue

hm...

2009-03-30T09:53:00.000-07:00

hmm... it been a long while i dint update my blog ler~..... hmm...
very busy of my assignment recently... aiks monday till Thursday all got submission~ die~

ここで私は私の前女の子の友人ビットをここで述べている。

私は他の言語でそれを読むために私の友人のどれも知らないように書いた。しかしこれは彼女の方に私の感じを共有することを試みる私のブログおよびIである。

私は彼女と非常に幸せだったが、私がLauncestonに調査することを来た前に彼女が奇妙に行動すること時間があることを考える。彼女は私はほしいと思い、最も重大に彼女が私を見つける興味ではないようではない何が迷惑ではないようではない。ちょうど私達間の関係のようにちょうど関係はカップルとして一緒にある。これは約6か月後私達一緒に起こった。私はよい彼女を非常に扱う。彼女は他の人ともてあそぶのを好み、私は実際にそれを好まない、それらの1つは一流のフィリップおよび私実際に怒ってい、フィリップは私の友人だった。私はまた偶然彼または私を選ぶかどうか尋ねているフィリップがメッセージを書いたこと私の自身の目からのメッセージを見た。私がメッセージを見た後。当然、Iのへこみはそれについての彼女に告げる。ない今までここに。フィリップは私の友人であり、彼が私にこの種類の事をすることができることを私は信じない。私が彼女とのこの事述べたいと思うとき彼女は彼女が正しいように事の常に向きを変え、話す。それで、これはuが話す方法を知っているとき利点である。 I m悪い話者。

私がLauncestonに最初に飛ぶ日前に、彼女は非常に私についての心配であり、当然私達は悲しい離れてあっている私達を約感じる。後で数月、彼女は私についての喧騒の迷惑ここにするI m何について興味を起こさせないし。彼女は私が彼女を電話するとき苛立ちを感じる。私は非常に悲しく、当然彼女についてむなしい感じかなりだった。彼女はまた私達がより少なく互いを電話したら私達が互いを非常に逃すので彼女がよくするより少ない呼出しと言った。しかし私はそれがよい考えであることを考えない。悪い考えは実際にある。私が呼び続け、彼女の圧力を作り、そして私の呼出しを無視すると私が彼女を逃すので彼女を電話するIつ、彼女は言ったが。

10月2008日、私はKotaのkinabaluに戻り、彼女を見つける。彼女が仕事を家庭でしていたことを最も重要、土曜の夜の友人と出かけることから私を隠している彼女彼女私に言いなさい。私の友人はそれを見、sms私、私はまだ私によってが非常に悲しかったその夜を、非常に悲しい覚えている。私の友人は私にこと一緒に坐っている集団との彼女言い、組のカップルを好む。彼女はなぜ私こと中華なべを家庭でしている彼女あったか。

それで、私はkotaのkinabaluに戻って彼女とのより多くの時間を使うために多数を彼女ののための原料およびI飛行とちょうど故意に買った。そして私は彼女が私とのより多くの時間を使いたいと思うようではないので失望している得る。彼女は彼女の新しい友人か友人と私および私が私の家で待っていたより頻繁に出かける。実際に、私はkotaのkinabaluの月の間悲しく感じる。何でも私はするために、彼女がそれを真剣に取らないことを彼女に尋ねる。そして私は必ず失望している得る。

それで、の後で彼女と分割した。当然悲しく感じるしかし私が決定をする前に私は多数を考えることを持っている時間。私は私の友人にの多数を尋ねる、私に同じ事を言った。どんな名前を私が実際に知りたいと思わないかこれについて知りなさいことを彼女が私でごまかされ、彼女が私の友人の友人の名前Wei Yangとパブ(しかしIのへこみ)の何回もおよび彼女他をもてあそぶことを見るように1人の友人を得られる私に言った。ちょうどに弁解を彼女意味する他の人を持つ浮気者もう一人の友人を言った私に得た、与えているようにもう一人の人を見つけたいと思いなさいしかし私を同時に行くことを許可したいと思ってはいけない。残念、私はこの関係について実際に疲れた。希望素晴らしい扱うことができる素晴らしいそれらを扱うよりよい1つを見つけ。

New year 2009!

2009-01-05T01:46:00.000-08:00

This new year i go out with my friend to "the bed" .. here is some of the picture..

erm the girl with yellow is Khar Khim, and the back row is Donna and stella.
well khar khim is a naughty one and cute,it a long story.. we use to be working in same company too! Donna is cool and sexy.. i knew her since college..was my junior, stella is my dear girl.. it a long story..she is cute & i love her so much.

another year gone (2008)... good bye 2008! welcome 2009!

25 December 08

2008-12-27T09:22:00.000-08:00

this year xmas..
hmm.. i dint really have feel of the xmas mood..
no present.. no xmas party.. no full time listen to xmas song..no watch xmas movie.. haha
but still have chance to gathering with all my cousin and family :)

just got to home.. just now go out yam cha with my secondary friends at "room 25" lintas.. quite a lot youngster yam cha over ther... hehe.. what a saturday night~
time pass so fast..

Christmas Eve..

2008-12-25T07:52:00.000-08:00

hmm.. this year christmas eve..
after church, Hehe.. heading out to chill out with my gf & friends..
Well, shen & bed were fulled..so, we had to choose other place instead..
Jugs surprisingly very gloomy as no one seemed to be there to celebrate the occasion..too bad~
After Jugs, we changed to Bar su ( hmm dunno if i spelled it right) just at the water front..
Quite a nice ambiance.. that if only you like white.. haha.. "White Christmas"- just the right theme for the night~~ :) Cheers with beers!

Lim Khar Kim,Debbie,Stella,Shelly, adrian(from left to right)

Donna,Lim Khar Kim,Stella, adrian(from left to right)

Warisan square christmas display

Christmas is Coming

2008-12-22T18:52:00.000-08:00

Christmas is approaching soon.. hmm.. still thinking where will I be going on that day~

i m back~!!!

2008-11-17T03:34:00.000-08:00

i m back! i m back to my hometown from oversea-at last! So much for the anticipation..!
yea! back to kota kinabalu now.. i wanted to meet all my friends, family where i grow up with, spend time with..
i am really excited about going back-to meet who i wanna meet..family and friends~

Well, it was not what I' d expected.. I realize that the city has change so much.. one way or another...
The people changed.. though the place is fairly same..friends- living in their routine life.. but the connection between friends... definitely showed a whole lot of differences from what i've seen... it's like i don't really know them anymore... .. i thought they never would change but they did anyway.. Damn, i feel like only yesterday i slept, then as soon as i awoke this morning, i've been teleported into a future. A future that i need to embrace every events and circumstances that already happened in an altered wat.. Shucks~~it's hard to accept but there is nothing that i could do..

i'm lost.. in a place where i grew up.. where i am so much usedto.. will i be able to adapt and start to familiarized with all these? if i can, where should i start? go? continue??

sometimes i wish i could turn back the time...yet it is impossible.. time flies.. u never know what will happen tomorrow.. u never know what will happen in the future.. well friends~ appreciate every moment la.. if u know what i mean.. :)

Gold Coast

2008-11-14T07:06:00.000-08:00

haha~ just finish my exam and all the submission..
going back soon..quite excited~
well, will Fly to Gold Coast for a walk before fly to KL~
very nice place.. i like the place.. and the life over there~
seem different.. very different.. between the asian and the western..
i stepping into a totally different cultural from my place i was grow up with..
now i seeing thing that what i see when i was a kid in tv.. now infront of my eye..

MY MSN HOMINFUI@HOTMAIL.COM BEEN GONE~

2008-11-11T21:45:00.000-08:00

quite sad actually, my recent hominfui@hotmail.com
account have been hack by unknown... someone have change my password and i unable to sign in already.. i lost all my friends contacts,everything in that account.. i been using it for years for that account.. haiz..

i been trying to change to new password ..etc.. but i unable to sign in. In the end,i have re-create a new msn account. i hope all my friends will add my new msn account hoadrian@live.com
thanks all my friends for your co-operation.. :)

Cheers~
Adrian Ho
12 November 2008

nice song..

2008-10-14T01:15:00.000-07:00

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很感动,比喻出我现在的心情..

song name:靠近
sang by :李聖傑

Song translation:

walking in the mist of the crowd
i ask myself...
can a man live long without love?
those movie always make people feel the sweetness of love
but i refuse to believe it...

sitting at a corner where there is nobody
i ask myself again
should i continue or just give up?
nobody can understand how i feel now
want to see you want to avoid you
is so hard to decide...

chorus:
every time when i wan to come near you
u'll act cool...
looking into your expression as if everthing is clear...
all i want is just to prove the love between us...
perhaps for u everthing is just a game

all i wan is just being closer to u
and just wan to hug u tight
remind me all the past and the present of u
i still wan to be part of of ur life
as long u wiling to believe
i'll be at ur side always...

7 October 2008

2008-10-06T09:07:00.000-07:00

well , now was 3am and i still not yet sleep..
there have 3 task for every subject of each semester
and now already finish 2,
heading to 3rd task now...
time past so fast.. hope i can pass all together..
keep my mind peace.. enjoy every minutes pass through my life...
why i m here.. to achieve something good for my future...
for the better life i believe.. hope i can pass through all.. even if it hard..
things changed, people getting old.. time past..
wait for me... time will prove everything..
wish me luck~ :)

9 August 2008

2008-09-08T08:12:00.001-07:00

well 9 of August i decided to go to mt. ben lomon which is also popular place for ice skiing in tasmania..

i follow this bus to mt. ben lomon

new friends :)

haha.. ice kacang~~ come come eat everyone!!

ice skating

haha.. star fish

i craft my name on ice

my snow man... it so hard to do it...

haha.. i been attack by many people after they knew that that day was my birthday.. didnt capture much photo on moment that i been attack~ but i did enjoy that day very well!

My one week holiday...

2008-09-08T05:38:00.000-07:00

first time i saw this flower for real, normally we decorate it by buying the plastic one in shops every new year

here is the sign of our house, it mean "rose garden"

neighbours

mm... nothing to do... snap some photo around the house.. hehe..

6 September

2008-09-05T20:00:00.000-07:00

aiks, 1 week of my holiday wanted to end already...
assignment task part 2 wanna start already...
oh no~ my design 4 haven come out idea yet...
Asian architect... still reading on few books borrow from library..
look like need to rush again... haha~

ok that's it...

2008-08-31T07:36:00.000-07:00

p/s: 珍惜自己说拥有的，当你领悟了，已经太迟了。。

communication is important?

2008-08-25T09:40:00.000-07:00

7 August 2008

2008-08-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

start class already... just finish the first assignment ( this monday) which is presentation and design a new facade of the existing building in Hobart...quit interesting and enjoy doing a design again..
3 more to go... haiz.. getting worries and hopefully i can submit all in time.. which is week 6... currently this week is week 4... getting closer now... haiz.. there is communication problem between the student here.. seem like hard to understand what are they talking about.. hope everything going fine... :(

Study again..

2008-07-14T05:00:00.000-07:00

4 July 2008

it been a dream for me..
i will not forgot this day...
i been actually flying to oversea..
before that, i has been taken 2 week to prepare and pack my things
thanks my parents, especially my dad for giving me chance..
and thanks for giving me chance to learn more & new thing again..
it been a tired and busy week for me to arrange and thanks to my friends for arrange some farewell for me.. thanks very much~ :)
well, i been enjoy so much the moments and hope u guys too~

to be continue...

我不快乐

2008-05-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

现在的心情有点失落..
爱一个人，是时时刻刻的等待来电？
可是他人却又不会来电。。
手机是为了方便人类联络才发明的对吧？
一天24小时，1440分钟 86400秒。。
一天1440分钟却1分钟的通话都很难。。
是没钱？。。不对。。
是手机没电？。不对。。
是很忙？。。。。不对。。
是在睡觉。。。不对。。
就算是很忙。。一天1440 分钟。。。是不够时间吗？
仔细的度过。。
是久了吗。。
是闷了吗。。
为何一年两年的也会离你而离去。。
我的生活
像没有香味的花朵
我看我懂了。。
你表达方式已经不一样了。。
是让人离去的对待。。
让人做出决定的是你。。
是等待尽头。。
还是期待希望。。
剩下的日子该好好过吧。。

彩虹风车

2008-05-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

梦希望没有尽头

我们走到这就好

因为我不想太快走完这幸福

很可惜没有祝福
为什么天这么安静

所有的云都跑到我这里
或许不需要我了
沟通方式失去氧气
缺氧的我已要放弃
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕
没有理由我也能自己逃
你要离开我知道更简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

能不能别想太多

会不会手牵着手

梦境般遥远

甜甜的海水

复杂的眼泪

看你傻笑着

握住我的手

晚一点再到尽头
当作我最后才明白

周杰伦的彩虹和白色风车，是我的最爱的专辑歌曲
听了陶醉在梦里。。。带一点伤心的心情。。
或许时间能证明一却。。

16 May 2008

2008-05-16T07:26:00.000-07:00

唉~很闷哦~也很多东西烦~
现在工作的环境还不错。。
七月要去读书乐。。东西还没准备好。。haiz..
闷时找找朋友聊聊。。
朋友总会问道:那你另一伴怎么样?
实际来说,前途或另一伴.. 你会选择哪一个？
这些有些也是我朋友的心事，我就在此分享罢了～若如果得罪了，请多多包含～
没有前途，什么都不是．．还说什么另一伴．．
自己都养不起，你另一伴跟你一去受苦的话，你会开心吗？
就算回去跟你受苦，之间也会发生争吵，你能忍受吗？　
重要的是你能忍受对方的脾气．．非常重要！
对方脾气受不了，我就不相信你能＂永远＂的在一起．．
最重要．．在一起发生不满时要让对方了解．．
不过．．既然告诉了也没用．．往往告诉了还比我还生气．．还发我脾气呢～
拜托．．分享不满是要决绝问题的吗？
有些事不需要告诉了才去做嘛～如果告诉了还有意思吗？
要走了．．希望能花朵一点时间在一起．．
活得有的跟没有的都一样的．．被冷落的，往往会分手下场．
为什么？老一派的人会告诉你，要找一个你为了他活不了的人在一起。。
需要你才来找你．．这类型的往往都不会长久．．
在一起的，是要用别人能理解的方式去表达，而不是用自己的方式来表达爱意或关怀．．
爱一个人，就要接受对方的全部．．
可是，不要把这句话作为借口．．脾气或态度不好的话，要学习改正才行．．
人不是一辈子都停留在一个地方的．．脾气或态度方面要慢慢的改呢～
再这世界上依情况而跟改吧．．．学习迁就。。

2008-04-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

UMS STUDENT WAS KIDNAPPED- THE SUSPECTS CAUGHT !

DAILY EXPRESS NEWS 25 April, 2008

Kota Kinabalu: The Sessions Court here on Thursday heard how two local men had kidnapped a 22-year-old Universiti Malaysia Sabah (UMS) student in a stolen car, then assaulted, sexually abused and raped her during a 10-hour ordeal which only ended after police came to her rescue last week.

Mohd Ariffin Bidin, 29, and Mohd Sahrizal Suhaili, 21, who claimed they were driven by Satan to commit the heinous crimes, which sent shock waves across Sabah, felt the full brunt of the law by the time proceedings came to end at the courthouse.

Altogether Ariffin was handed a 59-year prison sentence along with 35 strokes of the cane, while Sahrizal was meted a total prison sentence of 48 years and 35 lashes of the cane.

Even the maximum sentence meted out cannot bring back the girl's virgin status.

There was shocked when receive the sms about the incident which keep passing to everyone in town. Its easy to blame on Syabu or achohol...don't they clearly have knowledge what those things can do in the first place??? They are muslim,What were they doing with alchohol in the first place!!?Why are taking drugs?! obviously breaking the law & then you go and Rape a girl by Kidnapping her and traumatising innocent girl for the rest of her life!

Just pray for the victim to be heal and everyone in kk is supporting her.. don give up easily..

很多东西，要等到失去了，才知道它的珍贵。是吗?

2008-03-23T02:44:00.001-07:00

女友有一次看到人家手上戴的白金戒指很漂亮，就羡慕的说：我也要有。男人看在眼里，可是他实在太穷，买不起好看的白金戒指。不久，在女人过生日时，男人送给女人一个用那种透水油纸包着的纸戒指。很别致，重重的，正在恋爱中的女人戴在手上，左看右看，就觉得自己真的好幸福……

女人后来嫁人了，新郎当然不是他。男人除了上那种没什么钱的班，吃饭之外，还写些她看也不想看的稿子。她不想嫁给他，虽然她很爱他。她嫁给了一个有钱的男人。是的，女人结婚的时候，上从耳朵、脖子，中至双臂，以至于脚踝，全身白金、黄金，金光闪闪。她把男人送给她的纸戒指塞到抽屉的角落。可是不久之后，她那多金的老公因为家族公司出事，陷入困境，老公也因此涉及不法行为，锒铛入狱。女人悲从中来，忽然就忆起了送她纸戒指的男人。

一天，女人在街上不期而遇男人。男人很大方，邀女人到他家坐坐。男人也结婚了，住在租来的房子。女人看到男人家里的摆设，仍然是很清苦的样子。男人的妻子替女人倒茶，女人看到男人的妻子手上也戴着和被自己扔在抽屉角落几乎一摸一样的纸戒指。男人的妻子离开客厅的时候，她可以感觉男人过得很幸福，而他的妻子也是。不像自己的一无所有，连丈夫都身陷囫囵。

后来女人在一本杂志裳看到一篇文章，题目是“纸戒指”，作者不择不扣就是他。女人看完文章后，便一切都明白了。她迅速打开抽屉，模出了被她丢在角落里沾满了灰尘的纸戒指。她小心地将油纸剥开，剥着剥着，眼前赫然就是一只纯纯正正地白金戒指。文章里说，为了买这只戒指，在那个全民皆穷的年代，只好瞒着女人去卖血，因为女人的生日就> 迫在眉睫，去赚、去借都来不及了。女人哭了，眼泪滴在戒指上。女人> 随后又将纸戒指小心翼翼的还原回去。

从此，女人不论上班下班都只戴着纸戒指，同事们都赞赏她的戒指精致> 又好看，有创意，问她是谁送的，女人不禁黯然，说：很多东西，要等到失去了，才知道它的珍贵。
http://www.qingaiyijiu.com.cn/forum/217236,0.html

尊重妓女,鄙视骚B

2008-03-23T01:56:00.000-07:00

在网上经过。。好像有道理，跟大家分享。。

妓女只要钱，
女朋友要了钱还要骗你的感情；
妓女不干净，
女朋友其实也不卫生，她们经历的男人也不在少数；
妓女随时可上，
女朋友你还得连哄带骗看她心情好不好；
你不必在意下一分钟睡在妓女身边的是谁，
然而你却得担心女朋友的床上是不是一个人；
你可以和好朋友一起上一个妓女，
但是女朋友很可能背着你在上你的好朋友；
妓女都很有职业道德，
作为女朋友几乎没有职业道德可讲；
妓女她卖了就卖了，她很诚实，
女朋友偷了说没偷，太过虚伪；
妓女不会把你和其他的顾客相比较，
女朋友常常会把你和其他男人来对比；
妓女卖身不卖感情，
女朋友却连感情都出卖了；
妓女从不为自己的卖找借口，
女朋友总有很多借口辩护自己的背叛；
我尊重妓女，
我鄙视某些所谓的女朋友；
一个是为了生活，
一个是为了玩.
http://bbs.6.cn/t.php?tid=10814

My first job

2008-02-01T06:47:00.000-08:00

my first job.. 2008
well, i was jobless since i graduate last year december.. i rest about 2 month..haha.. yeah i wasting my time.. well, i was waiting something good going happen to me... i dont know why i have the feel.. but it happen many times.. thanks god! i was waiting that after chinese new year.. then i going to search job.. everyone want their first job to have better environtment right? well, that what i think about.. a place where you do the work everyday.. and doing something you like it and enjoy it.. i got the phone call from my friend Redza(thanks redza).. and then i interview straight away... well, the bos is nice and take me after i show some of my artwork to convince him.. haha.. the place is.. mm.. i dont know how to explain.. it just.. i feel fresh and kind of "home" feel about the place.. i like it obviously.. it like a jungle.. green.. peace.. hehe.. this photo i take with n70 nokia.. not very clear and sharp colour.. but this is how it look like..

my brother married on 28 Jan 2008

2008-02-01T06:37:00.000-08:00

my brother and his wife
dad and mum
my sister and my brother
we are clone.. lol

30 Dec 2007

2008-01-08T23:34:00.000-08:00

at my grandmother's house.. thanks giving and my sister birthday.. haha~

Melinsung Beach

2008-01-08T07:24:00.000-08:00

mm.. under practice to find the best angle..

25 Dec 2007

2008-01-08T07:23:00.000-08:00

celebrate christmas and my dad birthday in my grandmother house. well, i nothing to do other than take photos.. haha.. well i dont have high-end camera.. i have to practice to capture the moment and angle.. :)

my 21th birthday on 2007

2008-01-08T05:59:00.000-08:00

my birthday is on Aug, so is not a chinese new year party~ haha.. :P
if u wondering why all my friends is red and pink, well i request them to wear red color~
it bring the mood of happines to all of them :)
message to all my friends who attended my party.. thank you very much! :)
and to those who did not manage to attend, thank you for your wishes through friendster,sms, and calls.
i 'm very happy to hear from you :)
well, it was a tiring and busy day.. and enjoyable!.. thanks to my ex-primary schoolmates, ex-high schoolmates, ex-SIA collegemates,and my cousins for coming.. :)
beside, i also need to thanks Cheng U Ling for helping me to take photos during the night :)

26 Dec 2007

2007-12-25T17:42:00.000-08:00

the first day i started this blog..
allow me to introduce myself..
my name is adrian, just graduate from architecture course.
well, beside architecture.. i interest in graphic too...
i keep learning new software as i improving my skills..
... mm.. more to come soon! :) thank you for viewing

beside this blog.. i have others website too.. please view and drop some comment for me :)
http://hoadrian.spaces.live.com (myspace) *a lot of useful article
http://profiles.friendster.com/adrian86( friendster)

p/s: feel free to drop some comment after viewing. Thanks :)